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My Heart ...? by lil-becky-emo, literature

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My Heart ...?

I can see his chest moving It's bobbing up and down His sleep looks diturbing As his face is in a frown I look down in my hand And smile at the knife The one that shall give me joy The one that shall take my life I take one last glance As I walk to my room You said you'd always help me But I guess you just wanted to groom I have the written the note goodbye I hope it makes them sick Ive thought of how'd id end my life And the knife goes through my heart so fast, so slick...

Because of you by lil-becky-emo, literature

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Because of you

You made me cry for weeks You made me try and take my life away You aliented me from my closest freinds and family You made me ashamed to be alive. I hate you for this I wish you was in prison for this I wish you were beaten harshly and tortured for this But I don't dare take any further All the nightmares becasue of you All the thoughts because of you The faith I lost And it was all because oy YOU :'(

Best Friends? by lil-becky-emo, literature

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Best Friends?

Bully you if you don't do as they say Eats your favourite sweets then say that your fat enough as it is Stab you in the back Turn your friends and family against you Fuck your boyfriend Rip you clothes and beats you if you say something wrong If you wear the wrong clothes you get pushed in the mud and ditched Evil you then make fun off you infront of everyone Nick your stuff when your not looking Ditch you as soon as someone else comes along Scream at you for never beeing there for them IS this all a best friend is? Or do I just pick the wrong ones?

But... by lil-becky-emo, literature

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But...

You said you would always be there for me You said you would always be there You said you would always be there for me But it's plain that you just don't care. You said you would help me through life You said you would help me through You said you would help me through life But you don't give a shit, do you? You always promised to care for me You always promised to care You always promised to care for me But in reality your just not there

Least I had the courage ... by lil-becky-emo, literature

I'm your best mate am I? by lil-becky-emo, literature

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I'm your best mate am I?

Im your 'best mate' am I? The 'best mate' you can't even trust The one you slag off to everyone The one you use when there's no one else I'm your 'best mate' am I? The 'best mate' one you don't let walk home on their own The one that isn't allowed to do anything unless you say The one that ain't allowed to have the lads you want I'm your 'best mate' am I? I'm the 'best mate' that takes you home after you get pissed I'm the one that's there for you when your latest boyfriend dumps you I'm the one that is always beaten up by your other 'friends' I'm your 'best mate' am I? Am I?

Sold by lil-becky-emo, literature

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Sold

I stood. Shaking. More with fustration and anger than with terror. I held him close. His warm body tingling on my skin. He was asleep thank god. What would I have done if he had seen? I wrapped the shawl around us both as I glanced around for a fallen tree to sit on. I found oe and sat down. Trying to keep my half naked body covered. What a night, I thought. I was in tears. I had ran away. Ran away from the hostel. My parents sold me to a sex hostl at the age of six. I'm now nine, an orphan, with a baby brother to look after. I had been beaten at the hostel. I always got the blame for anything That went wrong. Just because I was the youn

Changes by lil-becky-emo, literature

Old Times by lil-becky-emo, literature

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Old Times

I stand there crying You try to comfort me No-one can comfort me now, don't you see. You sit me on your lap And ask me what is wrong I stare in your eyes, so tender and strong I jut sit there with a tear stained face You hug me then you dry my tears While I'm here, I hear you say, theres nothing to fear. But your not here, are you? Your far, far away May be I can visit one day...? Dance in the front room like old time You treat me as if I was your own child Always so pateint... Always so mild

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Goodbye by lil-becky-emo, literature

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Goodbye

We did everything together me and you We helped each other when we were blue When I cried you cried too There's not one day that goes by That I don't remember the day you died What made it worse was doctor's lied They promised me you were ok But you died there on that terrible day In front of my eyes were you lay And there is this one thing I never said Now that you was gone and dead All I wanted to say was : Goodbye

Feelings by lil-becky-emo, literature

Lost by lil-becky-emo, literature

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Lost

I sat there staring at it It sat there calling to me I heard the shouting from upstairs I knew it was know or never I picked it up shaking a bit i drew the knife smoothly and slowly over my wrist I heard a door slam and then there was silence I dropped the knife and it clattered to the floor It was then all the happy memories came Happy thoughts flowed steadily threw my head I climbed the stairs to my room unheard To die peacefuly and quietly on my bed

Love for Luke by lil-becky-emo, literature

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Love for Luke

HI Luke, I was just remembering the day u went.DO you remember it. We were at the beach. Do you remember know? We'd been playin in the sea and you said you didn't feel to good so we decided to bury your dad instead. It was so funny. By the time he woke up he was covered. It took five minutes to get out and then he started chasing us. I never knew it was going to happen. I wish i could have done something to help. You collapsed teir on the sand less than ten meters away form me. You started fitting and your dad reng for an ambulance. They said they'd be five minutes. They weren't. Time seemed to stand still. We talked to you and you calmed do

I cut because of You by lil-becky-emo, literature

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I cut because of You

Do you feel bad You made me cut You said so many mean things That made me want to die You always said things happen for a reason Well heres my reason I thought you were my friend and all you did was screw me over I told you all my secrets and they came back and got me You said they would try to make you mad at me And you said you wouldnt believe them I come back and you hate me My bad ,do you want me dead I cut, you know that I have a broken heart already So you and your friends decide to ruin my life even more Now I cut so deep my life is on the line All I think about is dying I cant feel anymore My heart has been stabbe

Dear Diary by lil-becky-emo, literature

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Dear Diary

Dear Diary, Today was the day I took a knife to my wrist I cut it in a special way with just a little twist. Straight down the middle and my pain drips away, just another cut to finish up the day. Dear Diary, Another day has passed, and again I've hit the ground I tried to scream this time, but haven't made a sound. I'm locked up inside, trying to find a way to escape, but I always seem to fall deep into a scarlet lake. Dear Diary, Again I have fallen and the pain is unreal, its just another cut that won't ever heal. There's just so many cuts for everyone, all who hate me, if you could just open your eyes then may

How can you survive by lil-becky-emo, literature

Mummy stabbed me by lil-becky-emo, literature

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Mummy stabbed me

Her dad was a drunk Her mom was an addict Her parents kept her Locked in an attic ------------------------ Her only friend was a little toy bear It was old and worn out And had patches of hair ------------------------ She always talked to it When no one's around She lays there and hugs it Not a peep of sound ------------------------ Until her parents unlock the door Some more and more pain She'll have to endore ------------------------ A bruise on her leg A scar on her face Why would she be In such a horrible place? ------------------------ But she grabs her bear And softly crys She loves her parent

MY Little Girl Smile by lil-becky-emo, literature

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MY Little Girl Smile

They are all the same Throwing questions my way And when I answer them Dont tell me that Im just throwing my life away Listen to what I have to say What made me do the things I do If you listen to the words coming out of my mouth And I might just listen to you Why me who understands this pain Why me who lost the battle against the knife You answer me these questions And I might give you an insight on my life You want to know the answer To all these questions Well if I give you them Will I have your undivided attention? I dont want to be another statistic of society Or just another teenage suicide You mention that you

I'll love you forever by lil-becky-emo, literature

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I'll love you forever

A razor in my hand my friendship at risk my life is a mess it isnt worth shit cryes every night about my little problems blamed them on myself my life has hit bottom a promise on the line the razor, with a shine put my wrist out time to go thru, then live thru this doubt thought once again looked in the mirror couldnt bare what i seen my time was now here tears in my eyes pulled my wrist back threw the razor down cryed the pain out couldnt bare to do it you are still here promises mean everything why risk it,and end it here forever we stay closer then ever my promises still stays ill love you forever

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.Abuse. by baseballkool, literature

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.Abuse.

Broken hearts hurt way too much, Heart starts dying, tears and such. I don't know why this hurts like hell, I hate it when you scream and yell. Through my eyes, it was all so dark, I tried to hide those scars, that mark. Get away from me, I want to be alone, Especially when you hit me, and even break a bone. You push me back, as I fall to my knees, I don't know what to do, how to please. My friends were all right about you, But I was lovestruck and had no clue. It's over now, but I lie 6 feet under, During the rain, during the thunder. He sets flowers on my grave, full of regret, Something like this is hard to forget..

BlueEyedGirl-Who needs family? by BloodEcstasy, literature

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BlueEyedGirl-Who needs family?

Alicia woke up,The next morning to the smell of breakfast. Her mother who favored her sister screaming"Get up you idiot." She got out of bed,And walked out of her room. Her sister Vivien stood in front of her. She had light red hair,She wore a pink halter top,Exposing her stomach. "Hey Bitch"She said. Alicia looked at her "Fuck off."She said. Vivian looked relativily similar to her sister,in fact almost the same. She dressed differently,And acted differently. Vivian always acted like an angel in front of nearly everyone but her sister. "That Mike has gotten hotter lately."She said to Alicia. Alicia screamed at the top of her lungs.

Just living Up To Expectations by envy-those-who-sin, literature

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Just living Up To Expectations

It'll Be Ok Today, It Will. No Disturbances. Hah. What a lie. From all of The Abuse They Say, The Pain and Torment Everyday. They expect me to do this, Expect me to be like that. Mosher. Really? They expect me to be a Mosher. Because i am different to them. They Make Me Do it. What They Expect of Me. They Say Slit. So i Slit. All i am Doing is Living to Their expectations. Living to what is the truth to them. I Create the Truths. I Live To Their Expectation. And Then, They Don't Like It. How can I Please Them, The Supposed Superiors. I Tired of Saying Sorry, Tired of Them Pushing Me Around. It is Time for Us to Take

kieta kaerimichi by hitchi, literature

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kieta kaerimichi

I don't want to go home today, to a house of lies and shifting secrets where words are merely crumbs on the floor— complaints that do not want to seek the truth I don't want to breathe that air that procures tears from my dead eyes as I keep my heart under locks and chains, seeking that far-off place I left the key I don't want to see those faces, with such fake smiles and grins peeling away the tawdry yellow petals of secrets that hide dysfunctionality I don't want to wait for time, as I languish in thoughts of my feverish mind; sleep is no longer a haven I can embrace, for with your mistakes, you've taken it all away I

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I cut because of You by lil-becky-emo, literature

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I cut because of You

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Current Residence: CLANNY!!! (Sunderland)
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Kingdom Hearts or Zelda Ocarina of Time

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lil-becky-emo

Aug 8, 2007

[54] Sleep [54]

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ACK!!! I'm sooooooooooo tired like. I havent slept in what i classed as normal since Friday... I'm shattered. I can't do anything properly but I cant sleep either. Rosanna Hunt you ow me the biggest apology in history!!! And I'd just like to say : Get well soon Twinny ='( . Oh and the [54] is Twinny's racing number...

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lil-becky-emo

Jul 21, 2007

Paint :P

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Like we've told people before don't let us loose with paint! So what does Ambers mum do??? She lets us loose in a room in need of a good paint... And leaves us to it. :o . Was awesome at Ambers today with Luci. We got to paint green things and crea things... And ourselves :D I got my streaks though they hurted:P I got arse prints to :) Going to hopefully get the pics from Luci later so... :)

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lil-becky-emo

Apr 24, 2007

Sponsor ME!!!!

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Hello everyone =) Not in the best mood. Actually in a shit mood but that aint why I'm here. I'm doing a 12 mile walk raising money for the                     The Breast Cancer Unit                     Princess Diana Princess Of Wales                     Grimsby I know this is an issue that most people are affected with some time in there lives, not just by getting it but family and friends affected by it to. And any other cancer as well. I would like for people to help raise the money to help people that arent allowed certain drugs to be able to get them and hopefully one day, banish the illness all together. Please help :heart: